Happy Birthday!

So, here I am again. Sitting in a train for a few hours, so that I can get to my honey and the woman I love.

I’ve never before known that I’m a jealous man, but I am. We had an incident the other day where I saw the ex-boyfriend, and Oh man! was I jealous! I don’t know why, but I am.

So what am I doing now? I’m coming to you to arrange for a birthday surprise when you get home. I’m thinking about why I was jealous and how I have to get over it. I’m thinking of how I have to do my best to be the best man I can for you and be worthy of your love. I’m thinking of how much I love you and how devasrated I would be to lose you.

Honey, I’m a jealous person. But so are you, so maybe we’re good for each other. Maybe we’re destined to be forever with each other. Maybe you’re the future wife of mine and mother to my children. We have a long way to go, but I’m sure we’ll get there. We have to. I can’t imagine it any other way. I hope you’ll want me in the future too!

The birthday surprise. I told you that the hint was “1″. It could also be “first” or “beginning”. I guess you’ll see when you get home ;) Hopefully you’ll know what it refers to and really like it! Hopefully it will make your heart melt a little more.

Happy birthday, honey!

Your forever mine and always in my thoughts.

- Puppeliini

The feeling…

Love is the feeling I get when I think about you.
The feeling that everything will be OK.
The feeling that all is right with the world and nothing bad can happen.
The feeling that we’ll always be together.

I know I usually write a poem, but today I wanted to do something different. Today I wanted to write a letter to you. To tell you what I feel and how much you mean to me.

I’m sittinging here trying to find the words to explain my feelings. It’s hard. It feels like nothing is enough. Like nothing can put to words the feeling I have in my heart. I found this quote, that pretty much explains it:

“How do you spell ‘love’?”, said Piglet
“You don’t spell it…you feel it.”, said Pooh

 

And I really feel it. I also found:

“What day is it?”
“It’s today,” squeaked Piglet.
“My favorite day,” said Pooh.”

 

And it is. Every day with you is my favourite day.

I tried to explain how great you are the other day. I think I told you that it’s like watching a sunset. The feeling of awe you get. Also the immense beauty and the fact that if it was possible, you’d stare at the sunset for the rest of your life. That’s what I feel when I see you. Like you’re the most beautiful creature in existense. Like I would stare at you for the rest of my life, if it was only possible. And the love in my heart feels breath-taking. When I see your smile it’s like time slows down. And yet, what feels like mere seconds are several minutes. When you kiss me, I know I’m the luckiest man in the world. Just holding your hand makes me happy. Sleeping next to you… I can’t even put it in to words. It feels like all my dreams came true.

Instead of writing I’ll call you. Hopefully you can see the love in my eyes. I’ll always be there for you.

- Puppeliini